Heaven, Hell, And Time Spent Well

I said to Heaven and I said to Hell

Join me, my friends, lets chat for a spell,

Don't dare call me on the lies that I tell,

But I refuse heaven, and I cannot wait for hell

One eye on my back and the other on the floor

Sitting here for hours staring holes into the door

Can't take another second, begging for one more

Ask me, honestly, what I think pride's for

One hand at my side, the other over my eyes,

I never learned to pick on someone else my size

I'm drowning in the whats, whos, wheres, and whys.

But if you'd quit with all the questions, I'd quit with all the lies.

One hand on the good book, confessing all I've done

One eye on my past, and one straight at the sun

The burning and the blinding, self-inflicted just for fun

The bullets that I've dodged and the gambles that I've won

I said to heaven, and to the lake of fire

Eternity in punishment, a constant funeral pyre

Is drastic if a cleanly soul is all that god desires

I'm denying heaven and off to grace the fire

My once-white soul is soiled, in tattered shape indeed

Forgiveness and some common sense are all I seem to need

As naïve as the rest of us, I'm dying to take the lead

I can feel it cutting deep, but I still refuse to bleed

I said to heaven, I remarked to hell

Over a spot of tea, a visit for a spell

When peter sends me down, I'll come wearing bells

In godly celebration of the lies that he tells

Yeah, I rebut to heaven, and argue on with hell

Whether Christ is honesty or just a faerie tale

Either way my faith is sick and growing ever pale

If, god forbid, it's all a test, then I'm positive I've failed